Theoretically, we’ve all be waiting for this time to be able to do the things we don’t think we have time to do. Most likely, that has a lot to do with doing less. I’ve heard quite a bit of messaging out there to do more with this time. Start the business, create the thing, be productive still. And I would like to release some of that pressure so we can realize that this is the model that we’re trying to leave behind.
Things haven’t really slowed down in our family with Travis being a nurse and me continuing with my practice (and no school) but even still, without the dinner plans or the going to the library or the trampoline park or running errands, I’ve still found some space to do a few of the things that I’ve been longing for in the midst of growing my business and having a kiddo in the last few years. Let’s be clear, there is no peaceful daily meditation happening in our house with a spirited little lady who seems magnetically resistant to a moment without sound. But I’ve had it in my mind that I would be a mom that blissfully sits down and crafts with her daughter and helps foster a slower pace. In reality, I’m kind of a rushing mom.
Always wanting her to move a little faster and being a little frustrated when she wants to show me the food in her mouth for the tenth time that day. To which I answer, “Wow, amazing honey!” I can’t say I’ve totally left that side of me in the pre-COVID19 world but I am seeing where I can shift my perspective and become a little more of the me I aspire to be in our new reality that is temporary but likely to stick around for a while. I’ve ordered the craft supplies and sat down to make the paper bag puppets and it feels as though a part of me I “haven’t had time for” is resurfacing.
There’s a reminder of the creative, feminine side of myself that has been a little smothered by the achieving, doing person that’s been in charge most of the time. I’m going through the range of emotions every day with everyone else but I’m hopeful that this global reset will leave us with some lingering lessons of what our purpose is in being here, who we actually want to be, and how we want to feel as we move through this life.
